Moving to university and living in a bigger city has made me unsure of myself. For a moment there I thought I had it all worked out and was almost content in the position I was in. Suddenly I'm not so sure.
I've never thought of myself as a 'country mouse' but moving has made me realise how sheltered my life is. Having to meet new people and constantly reinvent myself to merge into various social groups and friendships is not only confusing but brings me back to 'where do I fit in?'. I don't want to have to censor myself of become this passive, agreeable person just because it's the easiest option. Yet at the same time with so many others to compete with, I no longer have the urge to stand out.
What I lack in self esteem, I make up in confidence and previously I've worn things not because I think they're fashionable or cute but because they're different and I can. I've come to realise that just because I care very little about what randomers think of me, doesn't mean I have to prove a point and dress with the intent of causing a reaction.
I know this is mostly rambling which makes little to no sense, but this changing of attitude and situation is making me reconsider blogging and whether my input to this community is relevant. Until I can figure out a way to take OOTD pictures, I'm unsure if I'll be updating as often.